Episode 009:The Privilege of Speaking to Me

In a time of do not disturb, protecting our peace, and boundary setting - we all set a certain softness in relationships. As women we tend to create a different standard when it comes to our hearts, and in the pursuit of love. Through the highs of connection and softness we so often succumb to our hearts desires, and set aside our worth.

We all know that with love, and opening our hearts comes with work. It comes with vulnerability, and allowing, trusting someone with knowing you by your heart. Your daily rituals, your thoughts, and the art of truly knowing you - by your heart. Love is a continual healing process for the pain that others have caused us - it is an openness to new, to being aware the endless love you give may end in disruption rather than the eternal loop of understanding and passion that we all deeply desire.

Kusi said it so beautifully in this last episode, "we have to kiss a lot of frogs," and it is an unfortunate truth. As love comes to an end, particularly when we are deceived by someone that we respect and looked to for comfort, we have to face a very deep unspoken truth. It is coming to terms with the fact that maybe you didn't know someone the way that you had thought you did. You look back at the times you had, and everything looks like nothing. You realize that you knew someone, while never knowing them, and sadly we grieve by continuing to look for them in them.

We must look at love, and humanity at face value, and while keeping an open heart - through tears, through gritted teeth, with love and care we must hold our hearts and worlds to a higher standard than we may even believe we deserve at that moment. We leave love with our heads held high, "You no longer have the privilege of knowing me." Because knowing someone with endless love and care, with interest in this world, with yourself, should be honored and sheltered.

Xx,

Ekam Bajwa